Yuichi couldn't see lily perform. this movie portrays pain in oddly beautiful way, it's almost like those two emotions are injected in your body at the same time. hoshino going through unbelievable crisis and turning into something he despised. in the end it's really hard to hate any of these characters, that's how beautiful this movie is. it sheds light to hard aspects of life. only this movie has been able to make me feel something like this and I value it highly. I don't know how but these two emotions make me want to kill myself but in beautiful way..? that's weird. but I will forever admire this movie for displaying pain, hope, captivity, and love in such complex way.